I have been quite absent from Blogger land lately. But I have good reasons.
My heart and mind have been pre-occupied with other things. And ultimately the final decision was made, and though I feel good about it, and know it was right for me, there is still a sense of loss in having come to that decision. Not regret. Just a little heart-loss.
I applied for a new job, that would have been a huge, positive change professionally. A pay raise, new opportunities, new vistas, great co-workers, on-the-park housing. But as big of a professional change as it would have been, personally it would have been even bigger, but not positive. It would have caused me to relocate four hours away, leave my house, my family, my great neighborhood - things that maybe to some seem small, or manageable. But ultimately, my heart told me what was right.
And so on the day of the interview- today - I called and withdrew it. It did feel right. But still there is loss.
So I just had to put it out there, get it out, and now move on.
5 comments:
Sounds like a tough decision. I probably would have chosen the same path you have chosen too. It is right because family, great neighbors, and even your house are not little things. If you're happy there, you've got it made. $$$ and moving on/up don't mean a whole lot in comparison.
Tough decisions - Ultimately you have to do what feels right for you and your family.
Sorry for the loss Echo. I know how you feel...I tend to hold on to things with hope that they'll somehow workout, even though I know that the ultimate answer is 'no'.
If a change is not positive for your personal self, it is not a good change. You are wise to listen to your heart. I have never regretted it, even when it flies in the face of what is considered "successful."
Maybe next time, go for the interview--there is nothing lost and lots to be gained through learning about the process. You never know what contacts you can make that could lead to something that may be invisible now.
Those kinds of things are so hard! But I have always admired you for listening to your self and really knowing yourself. Doesn't mean it isn't hard, though, huh. Good job. Happy Birthday a couple of weeks ago, by the way...!
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